11 posts from October 2008

O.K. so I setup cross posting on my Vox so that I can update my livejournal at the same time without having to type to two different places. I'm not even sure if it's going to work, but hopefully it will. I just can't give up my vox it's been here since day 1 and it would be like giving up an old friend. I think though I might make this my more private journal and utilize my LJ as my more public ranting space. :-D I just want a blog where just my family and friends can read where I feel safe posting pictures of my children etc. Right now I don't feel safe doing that anywhere especially with some of the creeps that have been wandering around these websites preying on little kids. No thank you.

I want to purchase a film SLR. I already have a digital one, but I want to expand my photography. I have been looking at a few like the Vivitar and I also saw one from Nikon, but the Nikon one is a little pricey. I'm sitting here reading reviews on the sellers and from what I can tell the seller of the Vivitar is very unreliable and unprofessional. I hate to spend $400 dollars on a Nikon film SLR, but it might actually be a better choice. We'll just have to see when I finish paying bills etc. Don't you hate having to watch your money so much? It all seems to just go out the window and you have no clue what you even used it on. LoL.

Today I am suppose to be giving a power point presentation at work for some clients so they can look at some of the designs I have been working on. I told my mom I'd be back around 2 so she shouldn't have to watch Noah for too long. I always kind of feel bad when I make my parents babysit for long periods of time. I guess it's because I have the theory that it's my child so it's my responsibility and also because I know how rambunctious Noah can be at times. He's definitely a handful. I get to work and I'm baffled because no one is here. I was expecting at least 20 or so people and all I saw was my employer. He then informs me that the presentation has been pushed back to 2 because some of the clients had a hard time getting here for noon. How convenient for them and how inconvenient for me. I now had to call my mother and tell her she'll probably be babysitting for longer than I expected. This is why I hate going into the office because something always goes wrong. I mean don't get me wrong I love my job it enables me to work from home a majority of the time and it pays extremely well, but their communication sucks. My boss even told me to my face he didn't try to call me because he wasn't sure if he had the right cell phone number. Lame excuse, but it is what it is. At least now I can sit here at work and tweak some things before everybody shows up. It just really stresses me out because now I am pressed for time because tonight I am suppose to be going out with my two best friends so that's less time for me to get ready and just ugh. Hopefully today will end on a good note, but right now it's just looking really bad.

I found the most amazing pair of gray skinny jeans at Target. I can actually still button them up (just barely) but I have a BellaBand so I decided to buy them anyways for after I have the baby. I have been looking all over for a nice cheap pair and I finally found them! They're actually the perfect shade of gray and will look amazing with the boots I bought a couple of weeks ago. This made my day. LoL! Don't you love it when you find something you really love at a good price? It makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Oh and I forgot to mention...I really don't like the ankle boot. Just yeah they don't look good on anyone in my opinion and I just don't get them.

I'm watching this show on Discovery Health and I am completely intrigued. It's so interesting to see that these woman have no idea that they're pregnant. They have no symptoms either (well some of them don't) and some of them have other medical problems that kind of keep medical doctors from diagnosing them properly. The one I was most shocked over was the woman who hadn't had a period for 14 years and delivered one of her babies into the toilet. I was just like "OMG I hope this never happens to me!" than shocker of a lifetime she ended up having twins! Crazy! Than this lady had been told she couldn't have children after she had her daughter and than 18 years later she has a baby and they had no idea! The father was helping his wife in the bathroom and he looked and there was a head. Surprise! LoL! I hope that never happens to me that would just be a shocker. Moving on my husband and I were talking about spacing out our children. As crazy as this sounds we have already discussed having more children, but we're also still deciding how we want to space them out. Right now Noah and Aylin will be 3 years, 1 Month, and 2 days apart. I think that if I hadn't had Noah at such a young age the gap between them would have been much shorter. We have talked about possibly spacing out Aylin and our next child fairly close together. Right now we're in the process of weighing the pro's and con's of having our children so close together so I'm sure we'll decide for sure by the time Aylin arrives in February. I've been asking around (I know some families with children 11 months apart some have children 5 years apart I guess it all depends on the person) so hearing their experiences is kind of aiding in us making our decision. In the end all that matters is what we choose to do and I hope we make the right choice when it comes to our children.

Last night I invited my cousin Jena and her boyfriend over for dinner. I just needed a little adult interaction, but it ended up just annoying me. I just really get upset when she starts talking about how I don't work and how the job I do have was a hand-out since I happen to be employed by one of our family members. She also has no children so I try my best to just brush it off, but I can't any longer and I know she reads this (she told me so) so I am writing this blog to her. Just because I work from home, which was my decision, I still had to apply like everyone else. He didn't just hand me the job I had to go through interviews, drug testing, the same thing everyone else goes through. Yeah maybe I did have a little more push being that I was related to him, but that doesn't specifically mean he gave me the job based solely on that. Who cares anyways? It's a job! Also you don't know what I do during the day when it comes to Noah. He is a job in itself. Imagine sitting at home with a 2 year old who is constantly getting into things and always wants to be doing something. It's extremely hard to find things for us to do especially being in a place where it does snow heavily so it's not always an option to take him somewhere. Yes I did choose this you're right on that aspect, but please don't dare tell me I don't work that is the one thing that just annoys me to no end. I take care of my son, cook, clean, run errands and it is really tiring sometimes. My only piece of advice I can really give you regarding your rude comments is...don't talk unless you live it for yourself. How about you come baby sit Noah for a day, hop on the computer and do my work for me, while you try to juggle, cleaning, making breakfast, lunch, and dinner and all that stuff that you blatantly ignore whenever you say the things you do? Just ugh you annoy me I'm done talking about this.

I'm watching Project Runway and their challenge is to make outfits for Drag Queens. It's definitely interesting to watch considering I have lived a very sheltered life and have never been around a real drag queen. Watching this makes me kind of want to go out and meet one they are soooo funny! My mom came over to watch Noah today while I got some work done, which was good I don't need him to be watching this with me and asking me about drag queens. LoL.  On a different note hopefully by this time next year my husband will be graduating and than I will get to have him home more. He has worked so hard and given up so much. He has taken summer classes since he started, which was hard because we haven't really gotten a chance to go on any kind of nice vacation, but it definitely helped cut down the time he has til he finishes. I'm so proud of him and I hope everything works out. Right now I work from home for one of my relatives and he pays me fairly well so I am kind of in a bind. I really feel like I should go back to school to set an example for Noah, but than another part of me feels like I make enough money right now that I could be a stay at home mom at least until Aylin started Kindergarden (the 3 year old program Noah will be in next year is only half a day 2 times a week), but I still have time to think about it and school is always an option I'll just have to see how everything works out.

I took Noah to the zoo today because the weather was awesome and also because the zoo closes for the season on the 12th! They are having their annual Halloween festivities, but I wanted to take him before then. We got there just in time for the sea lion feeding. At first Noah wanted absolutely nothing to do with it, but he warmed up to it after he saw mommy feed them. It was nice just to have some alone time with him and be able to listen to some of the funny things he has to say. After that I took him to McDonalds to exhaust him even more in their playland. I was really excited to think that by the time we got home he would be sound asleep. Than the trip got interesting. On the way home I got stuck behind this huge semi so naturally I wanted to at least attempted to get around him because let's face it those things are never fun to be around period! I get in the left lane there's a minivan going as slow as he can because I am guessing he is absolutely petrified to pass this thing up. O.K. fine no problem I'll try the right lane, same deal! Of course I was really frustrated because I really wanted to get around this thing. I've really been trying to watch my mouth around my son (I have really severe road rage sometimes) so I politely said "Oh fudge!" Noah than started with the why questions. Why did I say fudge? Why didn't I say the bad word? Why am I trying to get around the truck? Why why why!? I love my child to death, but I literally had to tell him to be quiet that mommy was getting really angry. LoL! Finally the guy in the right lane exits off and I seriously hauled butt only to realize the guy in the far left lane finally got the guts to pass the semi up and was racing with me to shift over into the middle lane. Idiot drivers. Finally we got home, Noah was asleep just like I planned and wow I'm still wondering where all this laundry has come from! I seriously did two loads yesterday and today I have about three sitting in the basket by the washer and dryer! It's crazy and I think my husband might know something about it, but I will have to ask him. All I can say is my day started out great, had a little bit of chaos in between, and ended up exhausting. I am so beat!

Oh and Hooray for officially being 21 weeks today!

I know it's a weird title for an entry, but I just had to let everyone know that I am infatuated with dill pickle slices at the present moment. They're like little potato chips except they're pickles. I just fixed me a massive bowl of them and I will probably finish them off on my own with a little help from Noah. LoL. Moving on I said I would post my reasons for voting for John McCain and to be honest...I don't really care for John McCain either. It has been really difficult for me to come to terms that this is what we have running on the Republican ticket. I myself was really rooting for Mitt Romney, but as we can all see that didn't pan out. I'm kind of hoping maybe McCain goes peacefully in his sleep so that Sarah Palin can take over. I know that's so wrong, but that's honestly how I feel. I guess my main reason for voting for McCain has to do with mainly the moral aspect of it. I absolutely refuse to vote for someone who is pro-choice (Obama). I just could never do it and than have to look at my son everyday knowing that I voted for someone who believes in legalizing something that I think is just awful. I couldn't imagine my life without my babies so yeah no abortions for me sorry people. I never really liked Obama to begin with I felt like he lacked political experience (Let's face it no one even heard of him until now some people don't even know what state he was representing before he started the election. It was Illinois just in case you're wondering.) and he kind of got me with the comment about the 58 states. The what? At first I was like "Yeah o.k. he made a mistake who doesn't." it wasn't until my father brought up the fact that there are 58 Islamic States and Obama studied in Islamic schools and that just killed it for me. I just feel like Obama has a hidden agenda and that he has other things on his mind and the United States isn't one of them. I don't think he's very patriotic, but again this is just my opinion. I'm tired of ranting now I'm going to go back to my laundry and pickle eating.

Friends, I'll be forthright with you I believe the American voters who are supporting Barack Obama don't have a clue what they're doing, as evidenced by the fact that not one of them - NOT ONE of them I've spoken to can spell out his qualifications. Not even the most liberal media can explain why he should be elected. Political experience? Negligible. Foreign relations? Non-existent. Achievements? Name one. Someone who wants to unite the country? If you haven't read his wife's thesis from Princeton, look it up on the web. This is who's lining up to be our next First Lady? The only thing I can glean from Obama's constant harping about change is that we're in for a lot of new taxes.

 

That was in an email I recieved from my father and I couldn't agree more with the man who wrote it. People need to wake up...either that or come up with a better reason for why you're voting for someone. I will post my reasons in another blog entry once I get my errands done for today.